Expectations

Tomorrow is the Writer’s Conference I’ve been preparing for. My friend and I will be leaving early in the morning for Seattle. She’s been very helpful with showing me how to get a book proposal together, reviewing it, and helping me make it look professional. Thanks L for all your help.

The dictionary defines expectation as anticipation of something happening, a confident belief or strong hope that a particular event will happen and somebody’s likely prospects of success in the future.

I realized today that I don’t have any expectations regarding this conference. I just want to have fun and enjoy the workshops. Part of the fun is that I’ve signed up to meet with an agent in a group setting. I’ll have three whole minutes to pitch my novel to him. He’ll either say thank you or I’ll like to see more. Again, no expectations about what will happen. If he likes me than that’s great, but if not that’s just fine because the experience will be worth it. This is not a my way of preparing myself for failure, but rather my way of letting God be God and leaving it all in His hands. The only expectation I have is to have fun.

Did I always feel this way…no. I’ve been nervous about it, but I’m blessed to have people in my life that encouraged me to be just me. That’s great advice. Once I’ve let go of expectations the pressure was off and I was able to walk in freedom. Freedom to just enjoy the experience.

I’ve learned so much in this whole process. I’ve learned that I’m a storyteller who just enjoys telling a story. I’ve written a book, whether it’s ever published it doesn’t matter. I’ve learned that I love how proud my husband is of me for having just written the book in the first place. I’ve learned that I’m surrounded by much love and support. I’ve learned that this world is big enough for different types of authors. I’ve learned that I’m a writer.

© Nadine Z. 2007