This past year had its ups and downs. I worked full time, was a pastor’s wife and worked on finalizing my book with an editor. I celebrated family birthdays, and anniversaries (27 years married, 30 years together). Then things changed.
Tom got an offer for a job in Dallas and it was as if someone hit the fast forward button on my life. I was finishing up my book and working full time. We had to downsize, and prep our house for sale. It sold and we had to pack and move. Saying goodbye to people we loved in Washington wasn’t easy. We knew it was a God thing and the new pastors would be a blessing to the people.
We moved and Tom started his new job. We settled into our apartment and I continued to search for a job. A routine check up for Tom turned out to be anything but routine. Cancer came back and the liaison was forty percent larger than the last one. Chemo started on December 29th.
The day chemo started was long. Tom was very fatigued and had a headache. The next day he had to go back for a Neulasta shot to help his white blood count. That medicine can have its own side effects, but after recovering from some fatigued he actually went to work in the afternoon for several hours. It did tire him out but falls under the column of a good day. Today was not a good day. He’s having pain, nausea and fatigue.
Next year starts off with many months of chemo. I know that God loves us. I know that God is good and everything else starts after that. I know that we will enjoy the good days, endure the bad days and through it all keep moving forward. I know that I love Tom with my whole heart. I know that I will eventually get a job. I know that we will come through this storm. I know because God has gotten us through this before. I’m still holding on to hope. I’m grateful and know that Tom and I are loved. I know there are so many people praying for healing and praying for us through this time. I ask that you continue. It’s appreciated and does make a difference.
Tomorrow is the start of 2009 and I have no idea what the year will bring. I don’t know what ups and downs I will face. I know that I’m moving forward. I’m standing by Tom’s side and together we will continue on the path God has for us.
© Nadine Zawacki 2008