Maybe a fence is not enough. You build a wall made of brick. Still not enough? Install an alarm that rings into the local police station when someone passes the exterior wall. This can get quite expensive, but it’s worth it, isn’t it? I mean you can’t put a price on your peace of mind.
What if something goes horribly wrong and you trip off the alarm? The police call and can’t get through to you so they send a SWAT team to your home. They have trouble getting over the wall so they blow it up. The next thing you know you’re surrounded by guns and badges.
That was a silly scenario I know, but fences got me to thinking about internal fences. I’ve heard it said people build fences around their hearts because of offences. The type of fence and the thickness of it depends on how deeply the wound is. I know about fences around the heart. It’s something God has been dealing with me. I’ve asked Him to help me live a transformed life- more of Him, less of me. The moment I get hurt, I build another layer to my fence. This is something I’ve always done. It’s my defense mechanism. But that’s not living life with freedom and passion.
I’ve also heard it said that God will offend your mind to reveal your heart. What’s revealed when your mind is offended? I’m not talking about abuse here, but the things of life that hurt from people who we care about. The ones we call friend can hurt us more than anyone because we let them into our circle. It doesn’t take much to get offended or hurt. Many little offences build up over time if we don’t take of it. So what’s the solution - keep everyone out? I’ve tried that, it’s not good. Put an alarm around our heart when someone comes close it goes off. No, I’ve tried that too, it’s too noisy and ineffective.
God has been showing me the ways that I build in a negative way. It’s something He’s been working on for some time. I’m glad. It’s not an easy process, but it’s good. Fences belong outside the home and not inside. They definitely don’t have a place in the heart. So I’ve been giving God permission to tear down my fences. Whenever you give God permission to do something He goes for it.
Now my heart is freer to love.
© Nadine Z. 2008