I woke up around one o’clock. I could toss and turn, get up and watch TV or pray. I felt like I needed to pray. It was good a choice. Life had been on fast forward now for months. We have been so busy with getting the house ready for sale, selling the house, moving, working on the book, etc. The list goes on and on. (On the book front, Today I received the final proof of the entire book. I have to go though it one more time before they send me a finalized copy in the mail. Once that’s all done it’s only a matter of a couple weeks before it’s available.)
Back to praying. I’ve heard it said, “If you’re too busy to pray, then you’re too busy.” How true. I guess God was tired of waiting on me. He wanted my attention. I needed to pray. I needed to be vulnerable before God and allow Him to work in me.
Life had been a been a case of reality versus my heart.
The reality is that I need to find a job. I wish I could afford to stay home, but I can’t. I’m trying not to panic about it, but it’s not always easy.
My heart has been so very happy being home. I’ve been inspired to write (I haven’t forgotten about my story about Jake). I’ve been able to help Tom out at his new job. He’s been very busy. I’ve been able to take care of lots of moving to a new state stuff. I’ve been enjoying making meals and taking care of the home.
I realized I needed to surrender it all to God. I needed to surrender the reality and my heart. God already knew my needs. He was the one who called us here. He already knew my heart – He created it and it’s connected to Him. So surrender I did. Now I wait. I wait and see what happens.
I’ll continue to seek employment and my heart will enjoy the freedom while I can.
© Nadine Zawacki 2008
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